I just realised something after my last relationship that, I loved the guy fine but the mistake I made after the breakup was hoping that what he did or rather how he reacted towards me would be the determining factor over how i got over him and when i could move on. Last night like Oprah says I had an AHA moment/ an epiphany! I realised I was the one holding myself back because I kept hoping that maybe I maybe........ I know all this sounds bizarre for my age but he taught me to love and I did a good job of learning. So the epiphany is that: I am the only person in charge of my feelings, it doesn't matter what the guy does or doesn't do. Its all up to me. I was too busy keeping my fate in his hands to realise this before but now that I have it has lifted a huge weight over my shoulder and I feel more empowered because I was bordering on being depressed by depending on someone else for my happiness.

So my advice is cry it all out then deal with the loss and move on to better things. Like TD Jakes says "LET IT GO"!

MARINA HOSPITAL
The state of affairs at this government hospital is worrying to say the least. Went there on friday to check on a friend who was at the emergency waiting for admittance. Just walking into the emergency area i was hit by such a pugnat stench that made me feel sick. Now can you imagine that, a place we are supposed to go to to get better but instead those of us who went feeling good leave feeling sick to the gut! I just wonder how the people who wait hours for admittance deal with the smell. Even the person who was supposed to be in the reception area had jumped ship, no wonder though because really it just smelled awful in that place. I think something should be done with regards to the sanitary state of the hospital maybe they might just have people leaving it sooner rather than later because i am pretty sure such unhealthy air is bound to add to ones dismal state of health.

Yours trully repelled by the smell and worried about public health.......

GUYS AND THEIR WEIRD HABITS
Dont know if its just me but i have one particular thing that guys do that i dont really get because its been done by guys who mean different things to me. This thing of rubbing their thumb in the heart of girls palms whats it supposed to symbolise? I mean really guys if its supposed to say something not all of us are in tune with di sign and all that and quite frankly its irritating because first of all for hygienic reasons its not ayoba! and also beacuse it really makes me feel dirty tota. so please lets just stop boys its not a romantic thing.......just bad!