What life means to an almost 21 year old

I think we like to copy to the point of replication but that is not the point of life. For one it may be that for you to get to a forever happy or an almost always happy state you need to go through a couple of WTF years and being able to accept one's fate and overcome whatever challenges it comes with is the definition of living. However a lot of us find ourselves not living our authentic and true life because we are too busy living an exact copy of somebody's life and in the process only delaying the time for us to truly start living our own lives, thus people dying and feeling or their loved one's they leave behind feeling like they still had a lot to do, because living a shadow life can only make you so happy. Living and life for me is accepting your screw up's changing them if they bother you enough, accepting them if they don't and not being ashamed of them at any time or place, its being able to be in your own skin and not give a rat's ass what the person next to you thinks, its doing not what society expects but what you expect and can proudly and loudly live with and its knowing that karma is a bitch and that a universe does exists that does eventually put things into balance and that is you knowing you don't get away with being bad forever, bad will catch up with you and it won't be so nice and last that we all have our reasons of existence for ourselves and for the universe in which we exist. If you die having fulfilled your personal reasons for existing big up'a for you, however if you die not feeling like you have done something of value personally um sure the universe has gotten its worth of you, and live and let live because not one of us knows how they will die, being precautious does not mean you will not die just that you will probably die in what I would term a boring way e.g. Just sitting down or something despite your efforts to avoid dangerous possible death ways, in any case there is nothing safe about going out into the world because you can only control yourself; nevertheless when the universe can no longer accommodate you, die you will. We shall cry and mourn you for the longest time but we all are in the end destined for the same fate, the best favour you can do yourself is live and try to not be so judgemental because each person has a flaw and no one has or should feel they have the power to grade flaws.
#aspiring to this level of free spiritedness and living